I live because of Him...

Thursday, April 27, 2006

I am blessed with many things and with many people! I really thank Michelle (choir) and Justin aka Ah Kong for being there with me at the costume shop. It hasn't been easy on all of us coz finding costumes and props is seriously a terrible thing! And to Gracelyn too, who was scouting around for the costumes on her own at other places. Thank God that I have settled my costume and it's now a matter of me taking my mind off that conservative thinking and feeling inferior on somethings. It's my mentality and it's hard to change that. I'll try for the sake of the concert. And thank God for blessing me with a great Mum who has been helping me with a dress! I love you lots! It has been a tedious but fun process!! =)

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I really hope that the concert would be a success! And that I would do my best. I really need to remember my lines and lyrics already. Singing wrongly cannot happen in any choir practice anymore. And saying wrong lines shouldn't come out of my mouth. And I shouldn't be doing wrong actions and entering from the wrong sides of the stage anymore! I have to know the script inside out!! This concert will be a success!

for those who have yet to purchase a ticket from me, please do!! Coz it's going to be a great concert! =)
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Btw...MJ won TPJC in soccer 3-2. =)

Sadly, I wasn't there to watch and couldnt meet up with Ziwei!!
Ziwei... jia you for your runway project yeah??

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~Rach~ would you and i...

looked thru life at 10:29 PM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

It was a long day today...

It's getting very stressful for me and I am feeling the pressure.

Today's choir practice was very different from the usual Tues practices and it didn't follow according to the agenda. Mr Yong is sick but still came down. And there we were, not up to standard and not on form to give him the minimum. I saw it coming. And it wasn't a good feeling. Not that I don't like doing the musical. But I just thought the choir could have done better and not all that happened.

The script has to be edited again and poor JHui is working on it now. Writing a script aint easy especially when you have to work through all the procedures and props required and whether it is logical or not. And esp when it's like late in the night and the thought is only on sleeping...

The committee nomination form was given out today and I seriously think back a year ago as to why I took the form. I didn't really know what I was in for or what responsibility I was going to bear when I submitted the form to Joy. I told the juniors what I had to do as a treasurer cum librarian and realised it has been a lot of work to do. Now, I am wondering if I can be able to find a successor. It really takes a lot of committment to be in a choir as what Da Hong said. It's really very true. Juniors, think carefully kk!!

Time really flies and now we are already going to elect the new committee in. My time as a comm member is almost up. I don't want these exciting and memorable days to pass. I still want more time with the choir. I will lose the motivation to come to school after this. Sounds crazy, but yah...I don't want to step down!

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~Rach~ I really thank God for the times I spend with you. I have been blessed more than I have asked for. And when I chose to do what I wanted to, I didn't expect such outcome. It will remain in my heart forever. Thank you...

looked thru life at 10:33 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

Yupz dawn!! Into soccer ever since the soccer games were held at MJ's field itself. Stayed back one day after PE at the gallery and got stuck there with Shazana and my other friends to cheer and watch the match. After that, was following the matches already. Into basketball too although I didnt get to watch the games. Just want to know the scores and the progress of my school. Hehe!! It's a great feeling to watch and cheer with ppl from your school and then shout "referee kayu!" =) There's a sense of belonging and togetherness!! Just like the band competition right?

Congrats to TKBand for clinching Gold with Honours at the outdoor band competition held last sat! All the best in the finals!!

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Today, MJ soccer had a game against RJ at Teachers' Network field. But they had to stop it 3 mins into the end of the game due to the lightning that didnt permit them to carry on. The score was 5-1 at that time!! And MJ was leading!!! Argh!! Nvm, I know MJ can do it!! =)

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~Rach~ I want it to be better!!

looked thru life at 7:54 PM

Friday, April 21, 2006

Whoo hoo!! mel is going to kill me and say I am cocky again when she reads this. but i can't not say this!!!

MJFC Rawks!!
MJC vs TJC. 4-2!!

Too bad I wasn't there to support them.
Their next match is on mon against RJC. haiz...I can't go down and support them. End lessons too late. But nvm!! I will be going down on thurs to support them in their match against TPJC at TPJC itself! Jia you, soccer boys!!

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Yest, was just great though there were some cock up planning and organisation. But everything else went well!! I enjoyed myself and it was really great inspiring and encouraging people to save the earth!

oh yes..I havent said what I did yest.

THE LAUNCH OF UNEP INTERNATIONAL PHOTOGRAPHIC COMPETITIONS
FOCUS ON YOUR WORLD
MICA BUILDING, HILL ST.
20 APRIL 2006

I shook Prof Tommy Koh's hand and tried to encourage him and the other UN people into saving our earth and for the better of the future generation!

I was quite nervous doing this presentation thing coz I wasn't sure if I was going to say the right things. Everyone else had a partner except for me. but it was better this way as i could respond to the situation accordingly by my own. I practiced and rehearsed many times about what I was going to say. However, at the moment, I just said everything out and not according to what I have practiced before that. I wasn't nervous or stressed. Everything just came out from my heart. I spoke things that I really believed in and so, delivered the presentation to my max ability and satisfaction!!

We stayed back after that to have a debrief by the organisation
ECO 4 THE WORLD.

Photos were also our main priority! We stayed for another 1-2 hours just to film our tour and presentations and to take pics with one another and group pics!! It was just too exciting to leave! We left even after the organisers had left! hehe!!

Many thanks to Melissa Ch'ng for being my mentor and teaching me all about what I can really do to help. And for being such a nice friend during this time! Really admire your passion for helping the environment. Also to the organisers from eco4theworld. And To my classmates who put in their best and love for this earth! Esp jean who had to co-ordinate everything!

This project has really made me realise my passion for this world and what i really want to do for this earth! As the White Earth ambassador, I need to tell everyone that there is hope in the future after the much destruction done by man to this earth!! There is so much that a person himself is able to do! The 3 R's -- Reduce, Reuse and Recycle. Such simple logic won't take a person long to understand that. And if just by applying one of these R's, this whole world will be a better place because a small action will create a great impact! The choice is in your hands. The hope lies in your hands. For the sake of a better tmr, and for the future generation...

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Dinner last night was with Shaz, LC and Kenneth at KFC!! It was lame and crappy coz there was kenneth who told jokes with a straight face! haha! LC was laughing the whole time!! We had a great discussion on many things and I am just glad I have friends like them!! =)

Pics of yest event will be uploaded soon.

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I am very tired. And there is choir tmr! whoo hoo! =)

But homework is piling up and there are many tests next wk. Just feel like dumping all homework aside first!

Can ppl pls buy concert tix from me!! Argh!!!!!

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~Rach~ Seriously not sure... But happy! =)

looked thru life at 11:15 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

Why are we so pro?
We also dunno!!

We played against NYJC today and won 6-0! Whoo hoo!! There could have been more goals actually, but it was a great game! The screams and the excitement! Argh!!

*GOAL!!*

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~Rach~ How's your game?

looked thru life at 9:22 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Ok...will reply the tags here coz LC the PW rep wants full recognition for me getting my grade in PW...

Here goes...

THANKS LC FOR ALL THE HELP THAT YOU GAVE ME THROUGHOUT MY PW DAYS!! AND BEING THERE FOR ME WHENEVER I WAS DOWN AND OUT! LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS!! =)

ziwei!! yupz!! Thanks lots gal for supporting me! (And i dont think you need as much shouts from me like lc huh? Small whispers are nice and romantic! Hehe!!)

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I truly believe in today's bible class and sermon. You don't have to ask God for what you need and want coz God knows you inside out and knows exactly what you are thinking. He knows what I want and truly am pursuing. He bestows me with the best and lets me have the courage to go forth with what I think should be done.

I took the courage and it beats having a msn or sms conversation! Today, we broke all barriers and had a talk like what teenagers of our age talk about. Even though it's just about what happens in school or competitions, I am just glad that the conversation today lasted more than 5 mins and it was a great talk! We spoke more words than our many years of online conversation accumulated. I do hope that we could speak to each other like this every month at least to get an update of each other. I just want to be part of your life and understand you like I used to. Yupz...you are online now but seriously dont know how to start a conversation. We have both changed once we got to JC. and from today's conversation, you are no longer the quiet person I konw. Wells, I changed too. Seriously elated about today!

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~Rach~ Thanks for making my day!

looked thru life at 9:22 PM

Friday, April 14, 2006

There's only one person that knows what's exactly going on in my mind and it's unexplainable. I just can't let it out. It's an accumulation of many things that's creating this whirl in my head.

There has been many things going on in school and at home. Have I been too involved? There's school work, cip, choir... And so little time for Him. However, I try to keep Him in mind whenever I make a decision or give a suggestion. Have I been doing the right thing?

There's just someone I really want to talk to now and just chat...like we used to. But even now, as this person is online, I can't even start a conversation. It won't go on for more than a few sentences from each other. And it's the same topic each time. We can't move on to other topic coz we don't know how the reaction and thoughts of each other. It's not how I want it to be!

Are you thinking the same as me, like we used to? I really miss those times...

As I said, used to...We have both moved on and yes, have each of our lives to take care of. But I am glad that we have that belief in common. Can that friendship be found and made better once again?

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~Rach~Where's that someone?

looked thru life at 11:35 PM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Had PE while it was drizzling, but it was shuang!! I just hope my napfa test for 2.4 would be in slight drizzle. Its cooling and refreshing to run in the drizzle. In the rain would be fine with me toO!! =)

Guo lao shi (sec 3, 4 chinese tcher) once told us that the way she destresses is by running. I totally agree with her. It's really cool to run alone and just think of finishing the rounds and it takes everything off the mind. I have been conditioned to running ever since getting into JC and really appreciate every round I run.

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We got back our pw grades!! Very satisfying =) Thanks lots to Shazana, Jean, Esther and Simon! Love ya ppl! And to Ms Yeo too! For grilling me and forcing me to do my pw to the maximum best!

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We went to Chinatown again for the briefing on the upcoming CIP project where we have to help in the function that some ppl from the UN are coming for. The function is going to be held at MICA, Clarke Quay. And I am the Earth Ambassador!! It really relates a lot to my geog studies! I think I am beginning to appreciate being a geog student! Come on down to view pictures of what is going on in this earth and understand on how you can help!

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Went dinner with Shaz, LC, Sarah and Azzimah at KFC, Funan after that. As usual, we had our nonsensical chat and got to know more about each other. We walked around a while after that.

Thanks to all of them for accompanying me in searching for my attire and to LC specially for going with me to Ngee Ann City to get it!! We had an impromtu shopping night!

LC, you know what, on the way back in the train, I felt like vomitting. It could have been fatigue or maybe coz of the 'cham cham' flavours of ice cream. hehe!! I think the combination was wrong. Thanks lots dear for everything!

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I have the urge to want to watch a movie. The choir people are going to play pool then watch movie later. I wanna go, but i cant get away. Why do i have to make such decisions...

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~Rach~ I just can't get you out of my mind!! And it hurts...

looked thru life at 11:23 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

WoaahH!! It's been a while since I blogged and I just realised the last time I replied a tag was 27 March! Hehe! So I am going to reply here!

To Shuzzie: Thanks gal for the encouragement! Really enjoyed your company on the trip back from Chinatown! =)

To Szemin: Yeah gal!! Long time le!! We will meet up soon...soon...hehe!! :)

To Dawn: Hey hey!! Another week or so, we will meet up! I hope...haha!! Actually, I am looking forward to the souvenir rather than you. haha!! You know I miss you!

To Yoz: Yupz...its been a terrible week. Jia you!

To Joyjoy: Da sao!! Thanks for all the wonderful huggs and kisses for encouragement! I will jia you!! See ya around!

To Jeryle: A rare visitor! How to help you advertise??

To honG*: Another rare visitor loh!! Have you been reading secretly??? hehe!!

To Char: Be strong gal! Hold on the the faith kk? =)

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Yupz! It has been a very tiring week but thank God that the SCO performance is over. Don't be mistaken. I enjoyed the practices with Vocal Consort and SCO for last night's concert. But it was really tiring and I found it hard to focus. I stoned most of the time. Hehe! but it was a high and energetic night!! And it was a good experience and exposure. =)

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Choir practices for concert are getting intensive but enjoyable. I am just wondering if I can bring myself to do all those actions. hehe! So not me!

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There is also a CIP project thats coming up. It's on environmental awareness. SO GEOG!! hehe! We are suppose to help out at a photo exhibition that shows the different places around the world that portray the various human sufferings and activities that are happening. It was the ugly world coming to us! It's an interesting function but the time factor is really not on my side. For the sake of this earth, I want to help! Only if i dont have choir on that day...

Something interesting that I learnt at the course held at Chinatown on Fri is, "We volunteer and help now not to see results for ourselves, but for the sake of our future generation. Nature is one aspect that has been neglected because the effects are not immediately seen and there are no recognition. Whereas helping children will see immediate effects and receive words of thanks."

so people!! Do your part for this earth!! Save the earth!!

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~Rach~ Sometimes, you have to take the 1st move.

looked thru life at 10:24 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

I am picking myself up slowly but it's terrible. It's hard. I really don't know how to get started. Each time I want to get started on something, I have the other homework to complete first. And it isn't easy trying to complete these homework when I actually want to revise something else. I am going to complain that there aint enough time.

Really am thankful for the seniors who are very understanding and supportive of me. Esp to joyjoy, ky, harris. I can really relate to you ppl and really know what I am thinking. Love you all!

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I am again at the CC doing CIP. I am not going to do again coz there just aint time as said earlier. hehe! But it has been fun! I had one "customer" today. And helped you han with another. In all, we helped 3 incl last week. =)

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I love my 'weird' family and the only things that are pulling me to school is them and choir. I really don't know what to do when we step down...

Oh oh!! I want to have lunch date with weird family!! Thurs or fri?? GALS!!! =)
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~Rach~ I need that someone...

looked thru life at 4:16 PM