meeting LC and Mel tmr! Hopefully i can end the homework mania. Going to sam koh's house for choir bbq in the evening! there is the alumni dinner on fri night...haiz...lots of time taken up. =)
And i am happy and high today! Choir! And someone msg me all the way from overseas! (maybe not just me. but at least i got the msg!) =D
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~Rach~
Hey LC! I went to Changi Airport today! And Mr Bean has now been changed to Jollibean! So, that time i was right to say that Changi's is jollibean! Hehe!! =D
And i agree, Mr Bean is better than Jbean.
I shouldn't be asking for much...
I just want everyone to be happy.
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I am beginning to miss everyone!
TKChoir, MJChoir, KXFZ...
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I am brought back to reality once more. I cannot want everything. That's seen from the above things that I have listed. If those simple things cannot even be attained, what about greater and tougher things in life?
Take things as it comes.
Next year isn't going to be an easy year for most of us. That incls the Year 2s and sec 4s -to-be. It's a tough society.
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~Rach~ Reality hurts.
I am seriously exhausted.
Was at Siglap South for 7 hours straight just now!
10am - 1 pm: MJChoir prac
1pm-2+pm: Workshop with TK, AH and TPJC male chorus.
3pm- 5pm: TKChoir prac
I performed 11 songs today. Running here and there between TKChoir and MJChoir. It was tiring and difficult to have to change mood etc while we performed the various songs. It was fun though!
I have no regrets in helping TKChoir in this competition. It's my pride and honour.
I don't know when I would or would even have a chance to sing with them again. Their effort and unity that they portrayed today after the practice was heartwarming and the speech that Ru Hui gave was piercing. In a good sense though. I could see where they were aiming for. I could see that they really wanted to.
MJChoir is progressing well toO!!
But it's scary at how time passes so fast. Next tues would be the last time that we would be with the seniors. I really don't want to think about it.
There is going to be choir prac again tmr. and i want to make full use of all the time that I have with my seniors and all the choir members! My hols this year hasn't gone to waste.
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~Rach~
I am a weakling.
I can't handle stress.
Instead, I add stress onto others.
I can't handle impromtu situations.
I can't handle things that don't move in my way.
I breakdown easily.
I affect others.
I can just sing Ashita and cry.
I know the feeling of sadness.
I know the feeling where you want to do to your best of abilities...however, things are hindering you from doing so.
I know the feeling where something that's to be done doesn't get done and it has adverse effects on others.
I don't want to harm MJChoir. No way can i do that!
I don't want to put MJChoir in a bad position.
I don't know... I don't know...
I feel weak... I can't take it...
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MOST GREATEST THANKS THAT COMES SINCERELY FROM MY HEART...
Gerald, Xiang Rong, Bernice, Ying Chuan, Da Hong and whoever else that consoled me today.
The most impt person was Kok Yong, who was with me through the whole saga. Thanks for putting up with me while I showed the unglamourous side of me. Thanks for thinking of solutions for me. Thanks for being the great senior who would never let me take on everything by myself. Thanks for going through this even though you have already stepped down.
Sorry for any trouble and inconvenience that I have caused to anyone.
Thanks for understanding and letting me know that I aint alone.
Thanks for letting me know that it's not my fault though i feel i bear some responsibility.
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My attitude is wrong.
My attitude towards any crisis is wrong...
I get all panicky. Not really my usual self i thought though. However, i think i am beginning to become like this. Maybe I am getting too pampered? TOo many helpful people around. Haiz... -------------
~Rach~ Weak...