i laughed,
i giggled,
i shouted,
i yelled,
i sang,
and i know..
you must have heard me..
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Yes...I dont know what's gotten into me...
I just walked away when mum was complaining and talking to me downstairs.
I just stared at my dad and gave him the "bo song" look when he started scolding me becoz of my bro. (will get to that later).
I just shouted at my bro when he came into the room just to switch on the air con for me. That was nice of him, supposedly. But I can't stand the fact that he came in to see if the laptop was with me and if the internet could be used. (will get to that later).
So i blew my top at the three of them. There is no one else at home for me to blow at. Urgh...What's this??!!
So i am in my room now, blasting the radio and closed the door! They better stay away from me, if not they are all going to get another "bo song" look from me.
Let me explain why I am so bo song with all of them...
My bro has been addicted to MAPLE STORY!!
And my parents don't allow him to use the comp in the day. Rather in the night too. Anyway, he shouldn't be playing the computer!! It kills...
He played the comp during the week that he is to study for his common tests. Specifically, Maple story.
He played Maple Story during the week that he is having his common tests.
He claimed that he studied. No, I don't believe that he studied actually. But trusting that he did and giving him a reward, I let him play. And that became partly my fault that he played. (wateva)
The worst thing is that, he did horribly terrible in the common tests. Stupid guy. If he had played Maple story, it's ok. But he has to do well in his exams lah! Stupid boy. Failed his exams. And got scolding from mum, dad and everyone else. And whose fault is it that he failed his exams??
MINE!!
Why? Becoz I let him play the comp! Becoz I didnt coach him!! Becoz I didnt stop him from playing!!! Becoz I love him!!!! (wateva)
He can wake up in the wee hours of the morning to play. Sneak into my room and log on to start playing. And i dont know. Hello!! I am sleeping la!! I need to sleep!! Do you think i will wake up and scold him for playing? Even if i woke up and scolded him, do you think he will stop playing and go back to his room to sleep?? He will wait for me to doze back off to sleep and continue playing!!
So why my fault? Coz I didnt keep the internet card. Becoz I didnt lock my room door. Becoz I didnt scold him to stop him from playing. Becoz I can't stop him!! URGH!! I am not a super hero who doesnt need to sleep and get up in the night to scold him for playing la!! I need to sleep!!!
I walked away while mum was complaining abt bro. She was saying how the teacher called her up and complained about bro. She was complaining how she can't take it anymore and thinks that she will never have anyone to support her when she is old. She wants to go back to work for her old age. This way, she doesnt have to keep facing bro and both of them will stop quarreling. Oh well...She can go ahead. this way, she can stop complaining to me about him. This way, she can stop scolding me for letting him use the comp. It's not my fault at all!!
Yes...and I gave my dad the bo song look coz he was scolding me for my bro's actions and behaviour. And coz he was transferring the pressure that mum gives him to me. Wateva...
And I shouted at bro coz he is the one that got me into all this suffering! IF he had just did well in his common test...IF he didnt disobey my parents...IF he wasn't addicted to Maple Story...IF he had just listened to me!!
ITS NOT MY FAULT!! I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!! STOP PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME!! I AM NOT THE ONE FAILING MY EXAMS!! I AM NOT THE ONE PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES TILL ADDICTION!! I AM NOT THE ONE WHO DISOBEYS YOU!! I AM NOT THE ONE WHO DOESN'T TRY TO EVEN STUDY FOR THE TESTS! I AM NOT THE ONE AT FAULT! SO STOP PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME!!
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i am sorry...for making you all having to read all these...
but i really needed to vent my anger out...=(
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~Rach~ Fiery...
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