Wednesday, September 14, 2005
I was back home at 4pm!! The earliest in so many weeks!
Basically, I am home about 9+pm, leaving school at 6,7+pm.
No!! Today was exceptional. Hehe!
Left school at 3pm.
Ying Mama went shopping at Orchard
Char mei went home to do her EOM (PW sux)
Carine mei went shopping with her friends
Gracelyn and Eugenia mei were no where to be seen
Justin Ah kong was with his kakis (No no...not playing chess and drinking coffee...probably discussing some gothic stuff!! Haha!!)
Jwen stepmummy went back to "her" secondary school
Ber had to go tuition
Papa was very tired (PE's fault...I felt real tired after PE too!! Will elaborate later. Oh!! Some small joke...Papa was thinking very hard on the train home. He claimed that he was just stoning. Ber and I teased him saying that he was thinking of Ying Mama coz "she" was shopping in Orchard. Not worried about anything else, just worried that "she" will overspend and burn a hole in Papa's pocket! Haha! Jk Jk!!)
And so, Papa, ber and I left school at 3pm.
(sorry you han for abandoning you in school. See ya tmr!!)
And I failed my geog test again...Not even an AO pass.
there is no way my geog is going to get at least an AO pass. At this rate I am going, getting nothing in my head for geog, I can forget about ...(wateva)
I just hope that my population test can pass!! I always do better for the human geography tests!!
Though human geog is the study of human misery.
The study of the cruel society, looking at morbid pictures during lectures just immediately after lunch (beheaded bodies and people holding the heads up, wives beaten into a pulp by their husbands, polluted waters till there are dead birds in the waters...and more to come.)
Geog is interesting, just that there's lots to memorise. Haiz...
Going for bible study later!! =)
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~Rach~ Keeping the faith
looked thru life at 5:25 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
I have just completed my EOM!! Was reminded by Ms Yeo today during Geog tutorial. So, finally did one up. Have to do another one next week as the last draft. Hopefully, it gets approved! =)
I am sick and tired of PW. Thankfully my group members are on the ball! Thanks lots Shaz, Jean, Esther and Simon! Love ya guys!! =)
Today is the start of the last term. In another 23 days, we are going to sit for our promos. It's scary. I don't have much time to study. And I still have tests to sit for and projects and tutorials to clear.
Heard that study leave has been cut to only 2 days. Haiz... there goes my plan of using the study leave to really study lahz!! Maybe this really tells me that I shouldn't wait till then to really study.
Geog test was managable. Hopefully I can at least pass this one!! Population!! I stayed up last night (sun) to really study for it...Only about 4 lectures tested out of 11 lah!! All those that I studied in the night didnt come out. Well...it's ok. I should be thankful that it didnt come out! If not, I don't think I will even recall wat's it about.
The rest of the day was ok. Econs lect was fun! Mr Hon lectured!! I think it's good that he teaches. I am able to remember more of what he teaches than the other lecturers. =)
Was stoning, however, during his tutorial. Was really tired le. And it was one lesson after lunch. Could really feel myself sinking into dreamland.
We did Softball for PE today. Never liked softball. But it was fun catching the ball that Azzimah pitched!! She was my partner. Missed the ball a few times. But yah...told ya softball isn't my game!!
Met up with the choir people after discussing some geog stuff. The year 2s met up with us after their maths paper. In another year, I am going to take my prelims. That is if I do pass my promos. Well...read Char's blog. She knows where she is going if she doesnt make it. But me, I don't have a single or faint idea what and where to go. I only know that I have to pass my English. Darn it...
Seriously, I have no idea what am I going to do. The retaining path looks very bright...as in real. Yet, I am forcing myself not to even think of that route. My chances of promoting aren't very high. All my grades are like borderline. Some are even failed grades. There is no way I can perform a miracle for my promos.
Scared...I am getting...
It's
my
own
fault
...
No
one
can
help
...
Future
seems
bleak
...
Really...
~Rach~
looked thru life at 1:01 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Yahz...and I am still here blogging.
There is a geog population test tmr and I am only done with 5 chapters. I still have 6 more to go. I just can't seem to sit down and get the information in. Will just crap it out tmr. (wateva)
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Mel!! I am very happy that you finally blogged at KXFZ!! Miss ya gal!! =)
Mich...Waiting for you to finally have at least an entry there! Haha!
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I am going to abstain myself from using the comp. (Which is impossible)
Will be back here tmr night to do my EOM. Haha! And I have to do the Geog project. And there is PW Written Report.
There is no way that I can refrain from using the comp!
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Finally, no lesson on a mon morning! Probably only tmr. Next week sure have. Anyways, no lesson tmr morning means i can wake up at 715am! Yay! 1hr 15 min more than usual! Coz assembly starts at 9am! Haha!! Probably tues too! Heh heh!!
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Will go and start Geog now...
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~Rach~ We live in a crazy world...
looked thru life at 6:51 PM
Friday, September 09, 2005
looked thru life at 10:28 PM
I am bingeing on chocolates again!! Can't stop myself!!
Holidays make me fat! So irritating...
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Went to TK today for their choir prac! I really enjoyed myself!!
Oh oh!! We practiced in the COE (Centre for Excellence) Room. Formerly known as the needle work room. That room is so cool!! 2 Aircons, red, yellow and grey walls...A nice red cozy couch...Ahhh...and there was a separate computer room with about 20 computers inside the COE. Its so nice!! Haiz...they are lucky people...
Today was just sectionals, but, after so long, I felt that sectionals werent too bad.
Great job Faith.
Will be joining them again next sat. Hopefully...
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Going to do a bit of Geog now... Hope I can finish it.
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Wen wen...stop MAPLING!! STUDY!!
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~Rach~ Promos... = (
looked thru life at 2:19 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Life is...
full of coincidences
stress
thoughts
heartache
headache
discomforting
decision making
encouragement
acceptance
mixed feelings
a series of unknown events
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Well...things can't always go the way we want it to be.
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My 1st time to Popeye didn't pull through.
Ber, Char mei, DH papa, YC mama, Wen2, Jeffrey, Shi Yun and me went to Changi Airport for dinner. We decided to go to Popeye after concluding that going to TM was once too often and we would always go to Pasta Mania. So for a change, Changi Airport was the destination.
I felt a tinge of apprehension about going to Changi Airport. However, i didn't know why. I thought it was normal coz my reaction to going to Changi Airport was that eating there is normally expensive. I probably know why now...
True enough, at Popeye, we met many people. I don't know those people though. But mummy and papa saw their friends there. A whole group of them. (details are known only to us...)
Anyways, we decided not to eat there. Instead we went down to Subway. We sat there for 1 hr +, chit chatting about almost everything we could talk about. Haha!! Who cares about studying? Haha!
Changi Airport is just a wonderful place! Esp the part where we wait for the train!! It's just so cool!! So metallic. Really won't mind studying there. (where people wait for the train). Only if they allowed.
Talking about studying, I haven't done much besides some maths qns and some econs tys mcq qns. Really screwed.
Going back TK tmr to join them in their choir prac!! =)
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Dear friends,
Please take lots of good care though things don't seem to be going the way that you want it to move in.
The exams are nearing and stress is building up. But always know that I am here for you. If I can help, I would greatly be willing to be Doraemon and "shen (1) chu (1) yuan (2) shou(3)" (stretch out my round hand)!!
WE WILL MAKE IT TOGETHER!!
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~Rach~ Life is full of decision making...
looked thru life at 10:37 PM
Char and me!!
looked thru life at 12:09 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Yes...I dont know what's gotten into me...
I just walked away when mum was complaining and talking to me downstairs.
I just stared at my dad and gave him the "bo song" look when he started scolding me becoz of my bro. (will get to that later).
I just shouted at my bro when he came into the room just to switch on the air con for me. That was nice of him, supposedly. But I can't stand the fact that he came in to see if the laptop was with me and if the internet could be used. (will get to that later).
So i blew my top at the three of them. There is no one else at home for me to blow at. Urgh...What's this??!!
So i am in my room now, blasting the radio and closed the door! They better stay away from me, if not they are all going to get another "bo song" look from me.
Let me explain why I am so bo song with all of them...
My bro has been addicted to MAPLE STORY!!
And my parents don't allow him to use the comp in the day. Rather in the night too. Anyway, he shouldn't be playing the computer!! It kills...
He played the comp during the week that he is to study for his common tests. Specifically, Maple story.
He played Maple Story during the week that he is having his common tests.
He claimed that he studied. No, I don't believe that he studied actually. But trusting that he did and giving him a reward, I let him play. And that became partly my fault that he played. (wateva)
The worst thing is that, he did horribly terrible in the common tests. Stupid guy. If he had played Maple story, it's ok. But he has to do well in his exams lah! Stupid boy. Failed his exams. And got scolding from mum, dad and everyone else. And whose fault is it that he failed his exams??
MINE!!
Why? Becoz I let him play the comp! Becoz I didnt coach him!! Becoz I didnt stop him from playing!!! Becoz I love him!!!! (wateva)
He can wake up in the wee hours of the morning to play. Sneak into my room and log on to start playing. And i dont know. Hello!! I am sleeping la!! I need to sleep!! Do you think i will wake up and scold him for playing? Even if i woke up and scolded him, do you think he will stop playing and go back to his room to sleep?? He will wait for me to doze back off to sleep and continue playing!!
So why my fault? Coz I didnt keep the internet card. Becoz I didnt lock my room door. Becoz I didnt scold him to stop him from playing. Becoz I can't stop him!! URGH!! I am not a super hero who doesnt need to sleep and get up in the night to scold him for playing la!! I need to sleep!!!
I walked away while mum was complaining abt bro. She was saying how the teacher called her up and complained about bro. She was complaining how she can't take it anymore and thinks that she will never have anyone to support her when she is old. She wants to go back to work for her old age. This way, she doesnt have to keep facing bro and both of them will stop quarreling. Oh well...She can go ahead. this way, she can stop complaining to me about him. This way, she can stop scolding me for letting him use the comp. It's not my fault at all!!
Yes...and I gave my dad the bo song look coz he was scolding me for my bro's actions and behaviour. And coz he was transferring the pressure that mum gives him to me. Wateva...
And I shouted at bro coz he is the one that got me into all this suffering! IF he had just did well in his common test...IF he didnt disobey my parents...IF he wasn't addicted to Maple Story...IF he had just listened to me!!
ITS NOT MY FAULT!! I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!! STOP PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME!! I AM NOT THE ONE FAILING MY EXAMS!! I AM NOT THE ONE PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES TILL ADDICTION!! I AM NOT THE ONE WHO DISOBEYS YOU!! I AM NOT THE ONE WHO DOESN'T TRY TO EVEN STUDY FOR THE TESTS! I AM NOT THE ONE AT FAULT! SO STOP PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME!!
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i am sorry...for making you all having to read all these...
but i really needed to vent my anger out...=(
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~Rach~ Fiery...
looked thru life at 10:42 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
Was back at school at 9 am today for geog proj discussion, Econs tutorial and PW discussion.
Ok...they weren't too...difficult to go through..
After that, did some maths with the choir people...dh, char, ber, yc and wen. Very proud of myself for having to have finished doing my Applications of Integration Tutorial 1(area) and 2(volume). However, I did not do the tutorial 3 and 4 of Integration which is the basis of all integration. Urgh...i hate integration!
It took my the entire afternoon trying to do the tutorial 3! And i only completed 2 major qns! (Which is broken up into many sub qns.)
Thanks to these wonderful people (choir family) and azzimah, for helping me with the tedious qns. =)
Anyway, maths is the only subject which I enjoy doing. So, not complaining. Econs aint too bad too!! At least there are mcqs for me! But geog...haiz...i am never going to make it for geog...
Really enjoy studying in school! It just keeps me away from all distractions of the computer!! This only holds in holidays. I dislike normal school term. I love hols where I go back to school and study! No additional tutorials to do! And no new concepts to grasp! No lectures to attend! Whoo hooo!! Hols is the best!!
Can't wait for promos to be over!
29 days! (Thanks LC for reminding...)
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~Rach~ Sianz...
looked thru life at 10:45 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
People actually blog about their smoking experiences and tell everyone openly they smoke...and this person is actually someone i didnt think would turn out to be like that...people change...call me slow or wat, i just found out.
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Anyways...on the happier and higher note (LALALALA!!)...
I FINALLY cut my hair!!
Yippee!!
It's short alright..but still longer than many of you. It's cooling and I feel refreshed!! It's suppose to have some kind of wave and it's layered! Argh!! I think its nice!! (And cheap...$20 for 6 months..not going to cut in another 6 mths! Haha! Probably cut once more before I go KL...so that would be in another 4 mths...) = )
Thanks ah yi for accompanying me!
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Mum's friends came over...I think they should come over more often!! The whole house is so cool! It's so neat! It looks like some palace where everything is sparkling clean!! (I just saw her taking the "un-ironed" clothes out of my cupboard. Now I know where all the clothes that were hanging downstairs went too! :/
Anyways, she bought DIY Popiah for their tea. And obviously I had to eat right? Hehe!! And we are having that for dinner!! Pigging again...haiz...
It was fun having them! The little boy is cute!! And his name is Rui An! So close to mine! Cute!! = )
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I want to start studying...but i can't get started on it..haiz...
Will start today! And I mean it! I have to! Its 30+ days to promos and I am still slacking. Tutorials not done. Lectures not understood. The mood hasn't set in.
I know people (Azzimah, Sarah and Dianne) will tell me, "Stop thinking about your choir, and you will have a lot of time." Etc... Haiz.. they know me too well...my mind is one choir day in, day out. I can't help it! Why do you think I came to MJ instead of TJ (If I could have even made it to TJ)? MeL should know...
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I miss KXFZ...the other half...Mich and MeL...when can we have a full meeting when the 5 of us are finally free to go out?? Haiz...
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It's 7 pm...I feel like I have wasted another day... Pigging and enjoying myself...got to stop this habit... haiz.. Btw...kelvin...that blind guy won the Project superstar. But it's alright. As long as Kelly has a music contract, it doesn't matter to me!! = )
The show at the indoor stadium was great! Very entertaining! Good production i will say...Haiz..won't care about the off pitch...it was just high! Great show!! (Esp Derrick and his comical moves!! Dramatic...)
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~Rach~ I will be right here waiting for you...
looked thru life at 6:42 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
looked thru life at 7:21 PM