i laughed,
i giggled,
i shouted,
i yelled,
i sang,
and i know..
you must have heard me..
Friday, June 10, 2005
This chalet trip has made me become a happier gal and its prob the most enjoyable time that i have had for such a long time!! it has made me so happy that i am now super hyper and feel disorientated about wats happening at home...the feeling just changes...ok...i am now confused...i have so much energy that i dont know wat to do with them...its such a waste to put it into sleeping...its prob becoz i slept to much ba...and i just dont have the momentum to start studying...haiz...the people i mixed with were just fun!! (i think my dictionary has only fun as the word to describe...)
all the hiaoing and the bitching...and the chit chats...and the games!! and all that eating that never stopped...people were always hungry!! things that i never did before...walking in the parks at 4 am...going to the beach at 12 am...eating cup noodles at 2 am?? time was never about sleeping...
my doubts about wat will happen...as seen in monday's post...didnt really happen...everything turned out fine and happily...nothing really dangerous happened...its prob becoz i had those thoughts and premonitions 1st before i went to the chalet that i was able to really enjoy myself...if i hadnt thought about all that, i wouldnt have found out things...
i thought that all those people that stayed back would get themselves drunk etc and leave me as the only sober one... thankfully, it wasnt the case... harris and kY didnt...which i was surprised...and that lifted my spirits... i wouldnt be the only one who would be sober...also, i enjoyed all the walks that we had...the dancing etc...
sadly, there werent pics taken...regreted not taking...haiz...
i felt pampered...hehe...being the only gal most of the time...i wasnt afraid at all coz i knew who was with me...strangly...i didnt feel afraid...
"We must not be selfish and we must understand what we are doing... Because we may be sacrificing alot, which we do not wish to... In the end, we try to hold on to both, and it is unfair to both....
Hi people.... Its time to really think about all these.... What we want is one thing... What we have is another thing.... Choose wisely, because you cannot have both.... We must not be selfish and we must learn to let go.... "
This was quoted from kor...and i really think that it is meaningful...i must not be selfish and i cant just becoz i want to have that something and risk another person's future...and risk the happy friendship we have...i cant have the best of both worlds and need to restrain myself from such thoughts...
if not for this chalet... sentimental me wouldnt have discovered more of myself and more of others...and i wouldnt have found out a new chapter of my life is going to be started...its revolving about the choir...cant wait for the overseas trip end of the year!! and i cant wait for the next choir prac!! and i cant wait for the next choir outing and bonding sessions that we will have!! argh!! i am feeling so hyper once again!!
choir just brightens up my life! music rocks my world!!
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~Rach~ really treasure the times that i have with you...
looked thru life at 3:04 PM
*__me__*
*RacheL*
*10 Feb*
*Tkss - TK 4H 'O4*
*MJC - O5A1O3*
*TKChoir - MJChoir*
*O5A1O3*
*Kai Xin Feng Zi*
*JESUS*