i laughed,
i giggled,
i shouted,
i yelled,
i sang,
and i know..
you must have heard me..
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Today is a free day for me as I didn't have any papers. So, Dianne, Azzimah and myself went to PS to watch a movie.
WAR OF THE WORLDS!!!
This movie really set me thinking. Throughout the whole movie, I just sat in my seat, shivering and covering my eyes. It was very scary! Yes, I admit, I am a bit of a coward. I felt like screaming at times. However, as the theatre was quite empty with the people surrounding me, I wouldnt want to have the attention. Hehe...Even when the movie ended, I could not stand up. My mouth was also chattering.
Anyway, the movie really set me thinking...
What happens when a day comes that a super-huge-extraordinary-catastrophe happens??
What will happen to everyone?
Who would be with me?
What would my reactions be?
Would I be worried?
Who should I call for help?
Many questions raced through my mind...
I was probably scared because I really put myself into the shoes of the 10 year old little girl. (Coz she is also called Rachel~~ Hehe!!)
Well, I felt more relieved when I knew that since she was one of the main characters in the movie, she wouldn't die. So, there wasn't the fear of her dying anytime!! Haha!
Her father was with her throughout (or most of the time) the whole thing. He kept her safe and consoled her. She would call for him when she needed someone.
I know when such a day comes, I can count on my heavenly Father to be there for me when i need someone. He would be the one i call for help. He has a plan for everything. He would be there when such a thing happens. I put my whole trust in him...
If i say that i wouldn't be worried and that i wouldn't be super scared, i would be lying. There is still the human element in me--emotions. And of cause, i would be super scared! Just like today, I wasn't even at the scene. I wasn't even there. I wasn't even the one in danger. However, I was already so terrified!! How can i remain calm if i was there? I probably can't even run half of what they ran!!
Haiz...as to who physically would be there? I would really want my whole family with me. I also want my dearest friends...Anyone!! I want them to love me, to encourage me (to run)...etc...
To those who read this entry: Have you thought about such a day to come? What would your thoughts be?? Who would be there for you? What happens if you really die during the catastrophe? Think about it...
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ My trust in God has grown! I love Him more every second!
looked thru life at 8:47 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Yes!! Exams are over! Or rather, almost. There is still chinese listening on friday! And my Chinese 'AO' Oral! I am the 2nd person of the day for the room. I think so. Anyways, I am so totally not prepared for it! Ever since I have been in MJ, I have been speaking more of English rather than Chinese. Even during Chinese lessons, we are all conversing in English! I am beginning to know why Chinese is losing its importance in the world! If the Chinese do not even converse often enough to remember how to speak the language, how would others know? And how would the language have importance in the society? Digressing...hehe!! Well, i just hope that I am able to do well on Fri!
The exams have been one tortorous "activity". My thumb of my right hand is almost dislocated after the long periods of time holding the pen. I really wrote full 2 hours of econs essays! I think i wrote rubbish though. However, that's still the time that i continuously held on to my pen. The only time i released it was when i drew diagrams where i dropped my pen to pick up my pencil. It was full, continuous writing for 2 hours!
Maths today was terrible! I wasn't able to finish the paper and not do many of the sums. All in all, i think i am going to fail the maths paper. I have let so many people down. Haiz... I need more practice.
Well, it's ok. It's just the mid year...What a consolation...
Dad's bdae today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!
I am really proud of nick! He made a video for dad! He compiled all the pics with dad and made a video on it! Actually, it's more of a slide show. But its nice! Really like the initiative that he took! I didnt get anything though, but did just the cover design for dad's cd. hehe!!
I got my new timetable for term 3. I dont really like it. This is the 3 long term time table i am getting this year and i think this one is not one that i like. I still like last term's time table. I end at 115pm on fri!! How can that be? I have always ended at 1230pm every fri!! ever since sec 1!! *Humph* And most of the lessons are on the 3rd or 4th floors!! On the high levels!! I dont like high levels! Last term, most of the lessons were on the 1st floor! Haiz... There is nothing that i can do even if i dont like this timetable. I just have to live with it.
Cant wait for fri when all exams are officially done!!
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~Rach~ Feeling guilty...Sorry...
looked thru life at 10:53 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I really don't know what I am doing online.
It's the exam period and here I am.
I am suppose to do Econs and Maths today to get ready for tomorrow's paper.
I am not getting started! Oh no...
Yesterday's Chinese and Geog was ok, considering that I didnt really study. (Pass ok le) Hopefully, I am able to just pass. I am not hoping for an A or a D. An E would be great!
Yesterday was the first time in so many months that I consistently wrote for 3 hours. Both Chinese and Geog were 3 hours each. However, the Geog paper was more tiring!! Actually, it's the first time that I took such a long paper! The longest in O level was only 2hours+? Anyway, I did my Geog paper continuously and had a blue-black on my little finger. The hump on the third finger where I rested my pen on also looked like fold mountains. The lines and the... Haha! Too much geography.
Like to thank Dianne's mom for giving me a ride home yesterday! Really enjoyed the ride home. =)
Oh yah!! I received an email from Dawn! She has reached Canada! Hey gal! Glad that everything is going fine with ya!! =) Happy Belated Birthday!
To Shuzhen!! Happy Birthday!! Jia you for the mid years too!!
I am going to start studying. I really can't wait for this mid years to end! Another 3 days. Yes! And it's over!!
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Hang in there!
looked thru life at 8:32 AM
Monday, June 27, 2005
Just hoping that the next 2 papers would be done well...
Maths and Econs...
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~Rach~ Trusting in God's Grace...
looked thru life at 9:36 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Everyone is at the moment doing all the last minute study that they can do. What about me? I am here blogging. It's so amazing how I am not anxious or worried for the exams. What is wrong with me? Something must be super wrong! I am so relaxed at the moment.
Ziwei: I don't even think that I can cram everything into my brain if I want to...My brain is just empty...It locked all the notes out. So, it is now just an empty brain. Haiz...what can I do??
I am going to attempt to blog in perfect English and not all the corrupted punctuations etc... from today onwards. I am going to observe all the punctuation marks and capital letters. Also, I am going to leave out all the"... ..." after each sentence and put in a proper fullstop! Haha!!! Ah yes...going to stop all the double/triple exclamation marks! I am going to follow or take Ziwei's blog as an example. It's totally cool! The use of English! Oh my!! Ziwei! Love ya blog!
Actually, I am going to attempt to blog in perfect English is because I got a comment on my friendster blog about my English. hehe! And I have a major exam coming up on English! Really need to polish up this language. I would really love to blog in Chinese if i could. However, I don't have the means to do so. Well, so much for English!
Dawn! Have a safe trip!! Sorry that i could not send you off this morning! Take lotz of care and dont forget to write! I want the Canada stamps! hehe!!
To everyone else taking their JCTs, Midyears etc...All the best!!
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ I probably die this week becoz of mid years...
looked thru life at 2:38 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
OH MY!! ITS 1.5 DAYS AWAY to mid years!! And i havent done so many things!!
My chinese, econs, maths and geog is so screwed!! Its practically the whole exam thats screwed!
I have tried studying! Really! It's just not working! There is just too much to cover! Too many things!! URGH!! Not prepared is me going in for this exam.
Haiz...what can I do now? I just don't have enough time to cover everything! I shall cover my chinese today and complete the stuff that i have to do and try to start memorising geog. And shall use tues to memorise all the maths and econs stuff. The whole exam would be over!! Yes!
Oh no...its an illusion. I won't be able to do all that...
Oh well...all the best to me...
And to everyone else!! Jia you!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ What should I do?
looked thru life at 3:00 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Today went back to TK to see the choir with ziwei! Love them lotz! They seem an energetic lot! Jia you for the upcoming performances!!
After that, we walked to PP for lunch and meet LC and WS to study at BK...ZW helped me to develop some pics...thanks gal! wouldn't know wat to do if not for you!! haha!!
We spent the afternoon doing econs, maths, chinese etc...mel came about 330pm. Oh my! i just realised how much i have studied and remembered! I cant recall the formulas and the concepts!! i am going to be so dead for next wk!! ahz!!!
Well...going now...cant meet zw and lc tmr to study tmr...have to stay at home... but its ok. i think i will concentrate as well as i did today. Really need to brush up all the formulas...
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Missing you...
looked thru life at 9:32 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
So extremely happy and proud of myself today!! For the 1st time in the whole holidays did I really have felt that i have done serious studying!! It was supposed to have been done long time ago I know, but can't help it. The mood didn't come till today. Haha!!
Woke up super early today! 7 am! It was raining very heavily and so "shuang"! I would have slept in if I could. Dad took me to school. Was supposed to have been in school at 730am, but slowly had my breakfast--cereal, The best breakfast ever!! Reached school at 745am. Had econs consultation till 9am. Then did some maths with Dianne. Mr Chua was there, so we got him to help us with some qns. Then Azzimah and I stayed back to study. I did my econs tys!! The MCQS!! AH!! so happy!! If not for her, i dont think i could have survived the afternoon! Thanks Azzimah for helping and explaining!! Oh yah! Thanks to Benedictus (Choir Senior and direct senior) too!! He and his friends were great help esp when it came to econs! Me...being super blur, am very blessed and thankful for my friends!!
I just love today! Met so many people whom i havent met for a long time--2wks?? haha! Yah, thats long you know??!! Never knew that they would actually go back to sch!! Haha!
I am going back to TK tmr!! Going to see the choir!! Yeah!! They are having their choir camp...going back with ziwei to have a feel of the choir again! Yeah! love them!
Would be going lunch with her and lc and mug!! finally, the mood has kicked in. Yes!!
Hope i would be able to survive the midyears. After all, it would be over in a wks time. Time flies...Haiz..
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Good times fly past quickly...Tormenting times crawl pass like a snail...
looked thru life at 9:12 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
It has been a short week for me. Have been trying to study, but to no avail. There is only much progress for maths. Harris helped me with last year's mid year paper, and some trigo qns. He also helped me to remember the formulas-- Addition formula, factor formula, double angle formula etc. i d0 remember some now, but its still not there yet. nearer then would i really remember. Thanks to harris anyway!! for spending precious study time on me!! hehe..i was helping him to revise anyway! haha!!
My brain power is declining. My memory input is deteriorating. I can't seem to be able to memorise the things that i have to. Preparing for mid years, is worst then preparing for o levels. this is probably the higher level of JC. However, its also probably becoz of the slacker in me. Started preparing for this mid years late. i can see the F grades on my paper already. I know its just my fault and i am not blaming anyone. I should have started preparing earlier. But whats the point in complaining now. I just have to make full use of the remaining week.
Chinese--not touched
Maths--just have to memorise formulas
Econs--not touched
Geog--have to memorise the facts.
haiz...its just too much!!
Look at the remaining days that i have before the exams?
Today, will be meeting LC in the afternoon to buy dawn's bdae pressie! Will meet dawn and a few other friends for dinner. And i am still on the net!! that just leaves me with 4 hours to study today!!
Tmr, would probably be going back to sch for consultation. But i havent prepared anything!
Wed, thurs. STUDY DAYS!! will probably waste it away anyway.
Fri, may go back to TK to see the choir.
Sat, english lesson in the morning and then study! oh wow!
Sun, some time for me to do last minute "chionging" before the paper on mon.
Mid years will last only a week! It will pass very fast. After which, i would get back into the playing mode! So, hang on for another 2 wks!! (easier said than done...)
Going to study...hopefully...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Cant wait...
looked thru life at 9:45 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Deleted the original blog of friendster...starting a new one...
I can't stand studying life although i haven't studied at all today. Can say that i have just wasted my whole morning on project work.
My whole body is still acheing after yest's "hiong" session of badminton. Ah kong is still as strong as ever! He still has his powerful skills! His cuts and sudden movements just keeps us running all over the court! He came over to play with us-his grandchildren. This is the 1st time actually that he played badminton with us! He played with clarence 1st. Then with me. Next was Nick. Lastly Ziwei!! We were all trashed by him. Looks like we still need lots of practice. Ah Kong hasn't touched the badminton racket for the last 30 years and he still could play so well!! Oh my! Shame on us. Hehe! But it was a great game yest!
Ziwei came over to study after that. It was rather fruitful. I would prefer to study with someone. At least that would keep my concentration on studying instead of the computer.
Going to try to mug now. Guess i know what i am now. Not a mugger. Haha!
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Missing you...
looked thru life at 4:16 PM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
GEOGRAPHY!! the subject of the day...and no...my brain is still on maths!! i am dying there le lahz!! is there anyone that can help me??!! i want to go back for tuition...but there isnt time for that at all!! wats the point of me doing all the sums and yet no one can help me to solve theM??
actually thre are many people lahz....zw..mich...mel...lc...mel and lc have been helping me lahz...and there is mr chua...but i just dont want to go back to sch..i dont want to trouble mel and lc le...they have helped a lot...and they have their own studying to do...urgh!! its just not me to be slacking 2 wks before the exams!!
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Cant you help??
looked thru life at 2:05 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
I am still not studying...the momentum has not kicked in...its prob coz i have been playing too much for the past half a year...and becoz of all the fun people that i have been hanging out with...that is causing me to be super hyper and not have any concentration at all for my studies!!
maybe i should be like lc...just totally kill the comp or type in weird passwords to shut myself from the comp...but i am not so cruel lahz! haha!! too troublesome le lahz...
will go and start studying now...haiz...not something which i enjoy doing though!!
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------~Rach~ Still thinking of you...
looked thru life at 10:51 AM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
another 2 tai tais...with lc poking her head in!!!
looked thru life at 5:14 PM
Yupz!! up close of the 2 tai tais...
looked thru life at 5:14 PM
2 young ladies after shopping...see the big bags!!
looked thru life at 5:13 PM
Zw and lc...nope...they didnt want me in the pic...
looked thru life at 5:12 PM
Zw lc and me...da jie in center!!
looked thru life at 5:11 PM
yes! you both are smiling!!
looked thru life at 5:03 PM
Heads and shoulders together!!
looked thru life at 5:03 PM
LC and me...cosy cosy...
looked thru life at 5:02 PM
this pic looks like we are at some night pub or club...hehe!!
looked thru life at 5:01 PM
A pic with the box...
looked thru life at 5:01 PM
mel and me!!
looked thru life at 5:00 PM
See the number of boxes we bought!!
looked thru life at 5:00 PM
Hehe...Intercontinental...our dinner...
looked thru life at 4:59 PM
Another...
looked thru life at 4:59 PM
MEL and her shiny silver shoes!
looked thru life at 4:58 PM
another of ziwei!! gal...you look like you are going to sleep!! and you are drinking COFFEE!!
looked thru life at 4:58 PM
Me and mel with my box of cakes!!
looked thru life at 4:57 PM
Ziwei...*slurp*
looked thru life at 4:57 PM
My cinnamon ice blended!! yupz!! coz we were at coffeebean...we had to buy something to be there right? if not...i think we couldnt be eating our cakes there!!
looked thru life at 4:56 PM
strawberry tartlet...pear something pie...and i dont know the others...hehe
looked thru life at 4:55 PM
Mel and her box of cakes...
looked thru life at 4:54 PM
5 of mel's cakes!!
looked thru life at 4:54 PM
Counting the number of cakes that we bought...hm..how many did we buy??
looked thru life at 4:54 PM
HAHA!! candid of me and lc...i think we must be laughing at zw ba!!
looked thru life at 4:53 PM
not my berries!!! LC STOP!!! not all!!
looked thru life at 4:52 PM
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